I love my boyfriend. But honestly i’m getting tired of our relationship. I’ve been with him for almost two years and i’m started to get bored of what we have. We don’t go out, because i can’t due to previous situations. I guess that contributes to it a lot. I don’t wanna leave him for several reasons. One, i do love him. We’ve been through so much and to everyone else we’re the perfect couple. And he’s a great boyfriend, it’s not his fault. I want to appreciate what i have but i can’t help how i feel. I see myself with him in the future, but right now i wanna be let free. From a restrictions, commitment, punishments , from everything. I want time off to be myself. I don’t want to be single to flirt or talk to any other guys, it’s actually the opposite of what i want. I want time to do me, to have fun. I’ve been held back from so much, I’ve been taken for such a long time. It depresses me. I haven’t told him any of this. Because i’m unsure and i don’t want to lose him. I feel like he deserves to know the truth but i don’t want to hurt him and i don’t want him to be the one that got away. I don’t love him any less and what i want has nothing to do with him, although it affects him. I’m scared to hurt him but i feel as  though i should tell him the truth. I feel like a bitch and it burns me inside to even think about being separated from him but being chained up and bored like i am hurts me too. I have no idea what to do. I think i’m going to tell him the truth.